When You’re a Struggling Overseas Worker

When I was introduced to *Sarah, a newcomer to Canada, and her son, Austin*, at the drop-in playgroup the other day, I’m ashamed to admit that I judged her a little bit.  Her son seemed a little bit out of control (or just hangry).  And Sarah was tired and appeared apathetic.  She was due with baby number two in a week or so and was in a relatively new country and culture.  There’s no way of knowing the depth of how affected she was by the trauma from her war-torn country and the excruciating pain and loss before leaving her beloved homeland.  There’s no doubt she was missing loved ones – whether they even still lived, I do not know.  I had a sense that she was generally just feeling numb.  And then I got it.  I understood.  

Though my own experience pales in comparison to that of any refugee, I do know what it’s like to live in a foreign country where culture and language, no matter how much I learned, still left me feeling like an outsider.  Sarah’s numbness reminded of my last several years in Thailand, overwhelmed with motherhood, and weighed down with anxiety and grief.  I was numb too.  I get it.  I really do.  My heart was moved with compassion and I felt prompted to pray for Sarah and think more about how I can reach out to her and her family. 

I was also reminded of other moms on the mission field who are in the depths of the numbing shame for not handling life better than they are.  I think of single friends who are struggling despite being called.  These women struggle despite having prepared for serving overseas, despite their numerous prayer supporters, and despite a caring husband, housemate or team.  

One friend shared incredulously that she had actually been told that living in her country of service was exactly the same as living in her passport country.  “Why are you struggling so much?” they asked her.  (For what it’s worth, the two countries were vastly different in both culture and language.  Just basic daily living overseas can be exhausting, not to mention any ministry work!)

If that’s you, if this is how you’re feeling and what you’re struggling with, what I want to tell you is that you’re not alone.  You’re not the only one who has been in your position and struggled.  You’re not the only one whose feet keep getting stuck in the muddy bog, who use up nearly all their strength each time you lift your leg and break free only to get stuck as soon as that foot aims to set firm again.  

To you, I say this:

Don’t let your suffering isolate you.  Tell even just one other person your biggest burden, and you may just find they say, “I’m thankful you shared that with me.”  Or even, “Me too.”  Far too often we think that we’re the only one who has struggled with something and, for the most part, that’s simply not true.  You can even e-mail me [ beth at bethdonchai dot com ] and I would be happy to pray for you!

Seek help or ask someone you trust to assist you to get that help. It may be found in a counsellor, or your physician or both.  Be persistent in getting the help that you need. Be your own advocate or ask your spouse or friend to be your advocate.  There are wonderful online resources like those at MissionaryCare.com to give you a start in the right direction.  There are also extremely helpful counselling services available for missionaries and expatriates in many locations around the world.  Many of the counselling centres that I’m aware of, even offer some follow-up counselling via Skype.  Cornerstone Counseling Foundation and The Well International are two fantastic foundations in Chiang Mai, Thailand who offer a wide variety of counselling services.  Feel free in the comments to make personal recommendations of other counselling centres.  

Give thanks to God – you’ll find that this alone will change your perspective.  This study found that “compared with the participants who wrote about negative experiences or only received counseling, those who wrote gratitude letters reported significantly better mental health four weeks and 12 weeks after their writing exercise ended. This suggests that gratitude writing can be beneficial not just for healthy, well-adjusted individuals, but also for those who struggle with mental health concerns. In fact, it seems, practicing gratitude on top of receiving psychological counseling carries greater benefits than counseling alone, even when that gratitude practice is brief.”

Paul wrote many of his letters when he was suffering or facing persecution and yet he was so full of joy and gratefulness to God.  I recognize and fully understand that this is NOT EASY but the same Spirit who empowered Paul lives within each Christ follower today.  

The people who I found to be most supportive and helpful when I struggled were the ones who had gone before me through similar challenges.  They had battled the same battles, sought the help and support they needed, overcame obstacles, moved to healthier ministry locations, made other healthy life changes and were able to now help other missionaries who were struggling.  

This was what Paul wrote about in 2 Corinthians 1:3-11 (ESV):

“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.  For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too.  If we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation, and if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which you experience when you patiently endure the same sufferings that we suffer.  Our hope for you is unshaken, for when we know that as you share in our sufferings, you will also share in our comfort.

“For we do not want you to be unaware, brothers, of the affliction we experienced in Asia.  For we were so utterly burdened beyond our strength that we despaired of life itself.  Indeed, we felt that we had received the sentence of death.   But that was to make us rely not on ourselves but on God who raises the dead.  He delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us.  On him we have set our hope that he will deliver us again.  You also must help us by prayer, so that many will give thanks on our behalf for the blessing granted us through the prayers of many.”

So, whether you’re currently struggling on the missionary field, a foreigner living in an unfamiliar land, or one who has the capacity to support newcomers to your country, just remember that you’re not alone and that it will get better.  I pray that you, too, can get the support you need to not just survive where God has called you to be, but to thrive.

*Names changed to protect privacy.

Photo credit: John Silliman on Unsplash

Five Minute Friday: Secret #FMF

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My almost-five-year-old is still figuring out her groove with the swing.  When do you bend your legs and when do you straighten them?  How do you go higher?  If I make a face like this, will it help?  What is the secret?!

When we’re learning something new, it will take some time to figure out how to do it, how to do it well and how to do it in our own way.  I know I felt like this when I came to the missions field.  I felt pressure to be as extroverted as my teammates but after a few years I discovered something: I had to learn how to serve the Lord in the way that He had created me and gifted me.

Growing as a writer is the same.  How does the Lord want me to communicate what He’s putting on my heart?  How does He want me to use the unique gifts and life circumstances He’s given me to write?  How can I remain true to myself and God as I pursue this new journey?


If you are a writer but you struggle to share your work in a way that feels like you, then you don’t want to miss this:

Emily P. Freeman, co*founder of hope*writers, is hosting a live training for writers called “How to be a Working Writer Without Losing Your Mind.” It will be on Tuesday, May 22nd at 8 pm ET.  

Emily is a Wall Street Journal bestselling author who loves talking to writers about writing.

Click here to save your spot for Tuesday night’s free masterclass!

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These are affiliate links but I promise I won’t ever recommend something unless I’ve tried it before and have determined it to be helpful, inspiring or both. 

Beginning today and throughout the week until Friday, May 25th, Hope*Writers is opening up access to join their writing and learning community.  Sign up for the free webinar to gain insight from Emily about the process of publishing a book, and get a glimpse of what it may be like to be supported by hope*writers in your writing and publishing journey.

See you there!

Where Are You on the Writing Path?

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Over thirteen year ago, I began writing my blog a couple of months before I left to serve cross-culturally in Thailand.  I had wanted a place to share my thoughts, my struggles and my victories while I served in a new culture, language and country.  It’s fun to look back now and remember the situations and people I encountered and how the Lord sustained me through it all.

After a long hiatus from blogging, I made a commitment to began to write again in April and I joined an amazing community of faith-filled writers called Hope*Writers.  Through access to their online learning library, which is updated on a regular basis, and the support of the staff and community of Hope*writers on their Facebook group page, I know where I’m at in my writing journey, and how to get to where I’m dreaming to go.  I am inspired to write again and it feels like fresh air!

I’m excited to think through how the Lord might use me and my journey – my failures and successes – to encourage other women to be involved in serving God and living missionally both cross-culturally and in their own backyard, so to speak.

Hope*Writers only opens up access to join their writing and learning community a couple of times a year and next week (May 21-25) is one of those opportunities to join!

Whether you’ve thought about starting to write a blog (or start writing on it again), have an idea for a book or maybe even have published a book but you’re still interested in learning and growing as a writer, Hope*Writers is for you!

Give this short, fun quiz a try to learn where you are on the writing path and know your next step is.

This is an affiliate link but I promise I won’t ever recommend something unless I’ve tried it before and have determined it to be helpful, inspiring or both.

Looking forward to journeying with you!

Day 26: Change #write31days

I remember after my Dad passed away, twenty-one years ago, that I envisioned our family like a stool.  Initially, our family had four secure legs, but after my Dad died, and after some time to process the loss and grief, I could see our family as a three-legged stool.  It was different.  We had to reposition ourselves.  But after these adjustments (this makes it sound so easy), we would be able to stand.  My Mom, my older sister and me.

Now with my Mom gone, I don’t think that analogy works anymore.  Not because I feel like I can’t stand but because I can (although hurting and missing my Mom something fierce).  My sister and I both have our own families, but beyond blood relatives and married-into-the-family relatives, I feel that we have a stronger sense of the community that is also a part of our family.  If we were still a stool, we’d be one with more than a hundred legs.

We called my Mom’s support group, Team Becky – maybe that’s what we still are even though she’s now gone.

old windows and reflections

77. Time with new and still newish friends over food and laughter.
78. Time to remember the past with gratefulness to God.
79. A full heart.
80. Loving arms to be enfolded within.
81. The miracle of life.
82. Our first year of blessed marriage.
83. Our covenant of marriage – first with God and then with each other.

84. Fun projects to do together.
85. Exploring new areas together.

86. Old windows.
87. Metal twisted pretty.
88. Faded paint.
89. Wood with a face of a happy and long-lived life.
79. Reflections of sky and tree lines.
80. Popping in to visit friends just on a whim.
81. Provisions that bless.
82. Sweet baby smiles being big brothers’ favourite thing of their new sister.
83. Excitement of new bugs and their unexpected movements.

84. Boys running, jumping, leaping up, down and everywhere they can find space.
85. Discovering new community.
86. Palates overwhelmed with scrumptious anniversary food.
87. Spontaneous dance parties in our living room with just us.
88. A saved treat shared at last on a fitting occasion.
89. Friends and mentors who have spent time with us and encouraged us in how to grow.

May Prayer Letter

Some things will stay the same and some things will be different…  Sounds kind of vague, right?  But it’s a good summary of what’s in store for us and the ministries with whom we work/serve! 

We just sent out our May prayer letter explaining more of this exciting information and we would certainly appreciate your prayers!  So if you’re not already receiving our bi-monthly prayer letters and would like to be, head over here and sign up!

Spring Thankfulness and His Graces

It’s been a long time since I added to my list of One Thousand Gifts.  A friend of mine recently read Ann Voskamp’s book and dared her friends to join in listing what we’re thankful for – to practice eucharisto.

So my list continues on this overcast spring morning…

36. Fresh spring leaves unfurling.
37. Joy and gratitude overflowing at a weekend wedding celebration.
38. The forest floor abounding in trillium white.
39. Worshiping Jesus with our church family here in Canada.
40. Long forgotten pictures, words, artifacts rediscovered.
41. Vacuums making dust and dirt disappear.
42. Visits with friends not seen for years and years.
43. Sisters.
44. Family.
45. Green on green on green out my window.
46. Dark clouds and showers that will bring forth new life.

child victims of AIDS/HIV in S.E. Asia

I knew a little girl up in the Mae Hong Son area whose parents had both died of AIDS.  She was placed in the care of her grandparents but when it became known that she was HIV positive, out of fear her grandparents made her sleep on a small porch, just outside of their simple bamboo house.  At this point she was only six years old.  She washed her own clothes; Monday to Friday wore her browning school uniform but daily wore the stigma of one with HIV. 

The details of her story from that point on are not for the weak of heart.  Upon meeting her you would never know the pain that she’s experienced.  And she is just one – one of too, too many afflicted by AIDS/HIV.

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The Thai-yai are very much affected by AIDS/HIV and the problem is only growing.  Lack of education regarding STDs and other health issues and lifestyle practices certainly contribute to the problem, as do the lies and fear that spread through gossip and social channels.

Recently on Facebook, a friend posted this story about a six year old boy named A-Long who is also an AIDS orphan in China.  I highly recommend reading through the article when you have a chance.  A-Long’s story is one that could be repeated hundreds of thousands of times over in any location in Asia. 

I strongly believe that it’s in these kinds of stories that we as the body of Christ can have a huge opportunity to do that which the communities that surround children like these fail to do.  We can love these children, these victims of AIDS/HIV with the love of Christ.

We can love them because He first loved us (1 John 4:10).  We can literally and figuratively embrace them.  We can love them, and their families and support them and help educate their communities so that fear no longer reigns.  We can partner with national believers and learn how to help children such as A-Long, as well as their families.

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The little girl I mentioned earlier in this post doesn’t stand alone anymore.  Some Thai-yai believers and a small ministry reached out to her and her grandparents many years ago now and are providing emotional support, a little bit of finances to help cover her school expenses, and, most importantly, love.

Please pray for:

  • The victims of AIDS/HIV in Asia and among the Thai-yai people.  
  • Believers to overcome their own fears about AIDS and to break through the cultural norms and live out the Gospel of Jesus Christ among those who are victims of AIDS.  
  • Missions organisations, ministries and missionaries involved in this type of work to learn from national believers so that they can know how best to help and love those who need it so very much.
  • The body of Christ to grow in Asia – including among the outcasts, the sick and the unlovable.

Globetrotting to Spring

We arrived in Canada a little over two weeks ago.  As we rode in the airport shuttle van from Toronto to London, Tawee’s first comment was about how brown everything was.  And it was.  It was the “ugly winter” stage – but not as ugly as the dirty slush and brown grass winter phase that would normally describe much of Canada at this time of year.

We left the outskirts of the GTA and drove past farms and the countryside of the edge of SW Ontario.  Brown and bleak – but for me I felt my heart well up inside as visions of my Canada were a reality before our eyes.

On our second day back, we awoke at dawn and looked out the window to see a very light sprinkling of snow on the grass in the backyard.  Without hesitation, Tawee grabbed someone’s winter boots, and bolted out the back door to experience this “first” in his life.  It wasn’t until later on that morning that he went out again properly clothed.

First snow

 As our jet lag diminished over the weekend, the temperatures began to increase daily until we were regularly going for walks in – get this – t-shirts and shorts!  Talk about unexpected weather in March!  Record high temperatures were being set each day and we were not cold.  What a blessing!

Checking out what’s coming up in Mom’s garden
Hard at work in Mom’s garden

 On Saturday headed to California for 10 days – a week with The SOLD Project (with whom Tawee works) and then a few extra days in the LA area with Tawee’s friends from his time at Cal State Fullerton (where he did his research for his Masters work).  Rainy and colder weather saw us off at the Toronto airport and greeted us again at our first destination in San Francisco.  We were thoroughly spoiled by the warmer temperatures in Ontario.  I seriously didn’t pack warm enough clothes for California!  Who would’ve thought?!

While temperatures have been cold and more on the dismal side, our time here in California has been wonderful – staying with good friends and having opportunities for me to connect with friends I served with in Asia (who returned home to the Bay area), and also for Tawee to connect with The SOLD Project supporters and friends.

Wine and olive country – just outside of Livermore, California.
Chilly at our friend’s family’s ranch and “cowboy town.”
Time with former roomie, Lori, and her new husband, Gabe.

We’re grateful for how God provided for this trip and our time here.  Thank you for your prayers for us!

Run for Relief ’12 – Chiang Mai, TH

After a week of me teaching in the Internship Program, Dear Dear and I got up early and headed out to the NW edge of Chiang Mai (I guess so far on the edge that it was actually Mae Rim) at Huay Tung Tao Reservoir for another Run For Relief.

Run For Relief is a 5km run or walk race that first began in 2004 in Washington State, USA.  It was organised to help raise awareness about the situation in Burma, specifically of the areas where the ethnic peoples of Burma have been persecuted, killed or forced to become some of the over one million Internally Displaced People (IDPs) in Burma.  Run For Relief is also an opportunity for funds to be raised for relief aid sent into Burma by Free Burma Rangers and Partners Relief and Development.

As the leader of Free Burma Rangers announced before the race, in addition to raising awareness and funds, the race can be something more for its participants – running in solidarity with those who have no choice but to run.

Many of our friends in Chiang Mai run or walk every year.  It’s a community event that has spread worldwide. 

Tawee with our friend, Justin.
Me with our friend, Angela (Justin’s wife).
Tawee running the race in flip flops (one of the categories for running).
Tawee had come back to find me early on in the race and we walked/ran for the whole race, completing it in a faster time than last year.  🙂