If you could go back, what would you change? If my Mom could go back and take care of herself more, would that have led to a different outcome? If we had pressed for answers back in April when she was hospitalised twice within one week for pneumonia, would we have been able to do anything? If I had returned to Canada sooner to live closer to my Mom, would we be aching in the same way from time that we never had but should’ve?
It’s easy to think of what ifs and assume that the outcome would’ve been different or perhaps better, but it’s too tiring to think about it all because the reality is here and my Mom is in a far better place, with no more pain or suffering. Her faith was renewed. The Lord graciously met our needs in ways that were… how they were meant to be met. Of course, I would like to revise this last year, but at the same time, I trust that God is sovereign. Am I really so presumptious to assume that I know better than my Creator? Than my Mom’s Creator?