“Why do I worry? Why do I freak out? God knows what I need, You know what I need…” -lyrics from Jon Foreman’s “Your Love is Strong”
I was so worried about the drive to Cambridge today and as it turns out the drive couldn’t have been any better! Thank you Jesus!
“And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.
“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”
For those of you living in SW Ontario, you may be wondering why I was so concerned about the drive. [For those of you not living in the SW Ontario area and have no idea what the drive is like let me just say that it’s only about 1.5 drive away from London and the route is not complicated at all.] The part that concerned me was the possibility of the highway being icy or slushy or snowy or what-have-you. I’m still getting used to driving in the winter and I was… anxious about any sort of traveling which required me to drive any long distance out of town. Yes, I was anxious.
I’ve been learning a lot about a lot of things this past year. One of the things that I’ve recently had light shed on is about my anxiety. Not that I have the answer but I feel like in God revealing this to me, He’s showing me that He’s with me in overcoming this. [I mean, OF COURSE He is. But it’s helpful to get reminders that He indeed is!] The thought came to me today, that I cannot let my anxieties rule me. I cannot let my fears rule me. I realise that God gives peace and can take away peace about something but I’ve been learning how some of my anxieties, which I had mistaken for “lack of God’s peace” in a answer type of way, was simply an anxiety or fear that was holding me back from moving at all. Like I was being held in some sort of passive or apathetic state because of the fear that was holding me.
Anyhow, it’s still being worked out. I’m still learning. Aren’t we all?