Yesterday, while I was reading one of my Thai lessons, I realized that I was actually enjoying it. Let me say that again. I was enjoying reading Thai! I am actually enjoying Module 4 quite a bit and the pressure, that I’d been feeling previously, has seemingly disappeared! Praise God for that indeed! I love the fact that I’m getting better at reading and writing in Thai (although learning vocab is the real key – I may be able to read a sign along the street now but won’t know what it actually means!). The tone rules are fairly logical – like computer programming. If the syllable starts with a low class consonant, and is followed by a long vowel, then it’s mid tone. If the syllable starts with a high class consonant and is followed by a short or long vowel, then followed by a ‘live consonant’ then it’s a rising tone. Fairly logical for the most part. There are, however, exceptions. Words for which these rules don’t apply. Or a vowel is not written but you’re still supposed to say it. Ahhh, I’m still enjoying it.
As great as the Thai studies have been lately, this current week has already had its ups and downs. More confusion about the financial system. Whenever I think I begin to see the light about it all, it turns out that I really can’t see anything – or hardly anything. Frustrating to say the least. But the Lord continues to be faithful, and provide for my every need. At my lowest point this week, while riding my bike and crying at the same time as I went to run an important errand, I vented my frustrations to God. He responded instantly, reminding me quite firmly yet gently that He indeed has called me here. He wants me to be here. Simple message but it penetrated deep into my heart and brought comfort to me in the midst of my situation. Oh how good, patient and loving He is.
After that low point, I began to think about the past 6 months, specifically thinking about all the things that were so hard at a particular moment in time. Now, as I look back at many of those specific things, I no longer view them as challenging. He helped me with those things at those specific times, and now there are new things to deal with. I’m thankful that these difficult challenges don’t come at me all at the same time (although there are times that it has felt that way). Gradually He helps me deal with each one and move on to the next. How gracious He is.
Plodding on and pressing on, here I go.
O the deep, deep love of Jesus, vast, unmeasured, boundless, free
Rolling as a mighty ocean in its fullness over me
Underneath me, all around me, is the current of Thy love
Leading onward, leading homeward to Thy glorious rest above
O the deep, deep love of Jesus, spread His praise from shore to shore
How He loveth, ever loveth, changeth never, nevermore
How He watches o’er His loved ones, died to call them all His own;
How for them He intercedeth, watcheth o’er them from the throne
O the deep, deep love of Jesus, love of every love the best
’Tis an ocean full of blessing, ’tis a haven giving rest
O the deep, deep love of Jesus, ’tis a heaven of heavens to me;
And it lifts me up to glory, for it lifts me up to Thee
Words:Samuel Trevor Francis
Adapted:Thomas John Williams